Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Second time trying to post this. Bastard geist.

It is becoming increasingly diffilcult to function, in even the most rudimentary way, now that I have been back here two, three, five...? days. Nothing works normally. The weather, last week so ordinary, has taken a decided turn for the bad. Today, at lunch, we ate wordlessly, fixated as we were on the stormy skies, dark with intent, that clouded around the windows.
I cannot remember when I got here. The other guests seem as if permanent fixtures. Did they return to their homes, as agreed, at the weekend? Or did they surreptitiously remain here, absorbing and being absorbed by the PRESCENCE? Am I alone, surrounded by phantoms? By spectres, by ghouls? Or am I, on the other hand, consumed with a burgeoning paranoia which knows no limits, fed, as it is, by the dark woodlands which continually oppress the small clearing in which this decrepit manor house is situated?
I am unsure. I have never been less sure.
Until this afternoon I was I the grip of a feverish panic, a fervidly felt anguish that manifested itself as an unwavering certainty that I could vanquish the PRESCENCE. But it is not so.
I may write more later. I may not. The choice, alas, is no longer in my hands.

PS I tried to post this earlier, but the PRESCENCE has put it in the blog as if I wrote thisdays ago. It is the22nd October.

45 Comments:

Blogger radiocoocoo said...

weirdo

12:40 PM  
Blogger amu zu said...

clense your self.

Demistify that which is consuming you.

Dispell your 'own' shadows and you will be immune.

1:13 PM  
Blogger Diving Horses said...

Spirit's can have that effect on your computer, even causing them to shut off, or crash, or freeze etc. Remember, spirit is energy; computer runs on energy (electricity); and we too are energy. Things interact at a more basic level than most like to think.

It's time to send the monk home.

1:46 PM  
Blogger paraplayer said...

have you tried kicking at the air? Maybe you'll hit it eventually.

hire the ghost busters! Ring its bells! Get a vaccum cleaner!

2:20 PM  
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3:10 PM  
Blogger thesparkthatbled said...

lexden maybe you are just paranoid... have you been smoking copious amounts of marijuana again??

4:01 PM  
Blogger paraplayer said...

yea...marijuana made of fear!

5:04 PM  
Blogger Leon Fnord said...

Many of us are treading lightly, I think. I don't suppose you will offer any help calibrating a possessed spectrometer (it contains both digital and analog components)? There is no room in this world for such indecency and perversion in machinery, I thought. There is no room in my house not affected by the machine. Again, it's origin is unknown to me, and I am unable to move it. I'm tired... patience is running thin--with the spectrometer and with myself, I think.

Do you think a machine can have old scores to settle? Do you think it can have me do it's bidding without my knowing?

Why do I keep checking out the windows for something?

5:36 PM  
Blogger chris said...

ok, if this radiohead put me in the thank yous of your new album...
say something like hello sticky finger, or something random like that. I'll know.

7:07 PM  
Blogger OperationHennessey said...

In the dark we are without her empress light. In the dark we are without a light. Half asleep we're calmly waiting through her night. Half asleep we wait 'til she arrives

Clouds of birds are governing her dark blue sky. Clouds of birds are governing her sky. A rush of wind is gently playing with their wings. And yellow stones are standing on her eyes

All rejoice we are in her hands. When in here hands all rejoice. Owl eyes her sun will rise and light the land. All rejoice we are in her hands

7:33 PM  
Blogger radiocoocoo said...

i have a confession, today i smoked a marijuana cigarette . the first one in a few months oh my have i missed the high of yesteryear...

sadly it didnt make me any smarter.. although i thout about recording a train with my isight and making a small video. not that i would be making it for any other reason than being board.

i don't think up things like that too often..

also today i told my self banana co. is one of the best songs ever written
it reminds me of being on tour with tom jones.. lol.. mad MAD MADDDDD


looses transmissions

7:59 PM  
Blogger majikboy said...

Can someone dream, though not asleep?

Only if they don’t stop themselves from being alive.

Today was the time for the water to speak,

Who are you to tell me what part of the world is mine?



Death consumed me years ago, but I am still inside the shell

Still banging the ceiling, tearing out my fingernails

Silencing myself cannot be the answer, so witness my return to mediocrity.


Once we open the door, there is no way to contain:
No manner of ensnaring, can unrelease the white-eyed craze
I wish that when I closed my eyes, everything would go away
I wish that when I opened them, I was alone again.

The dreams of the last decade are gone.
Only the childhood-borne test flights haunt
If the dreaming stops, then waking hours
Must be used to tie the knots

Stay so busy that you could not possibly comprehend this
Do not sit. Do not breathe. Continue the madness continue the madness look into the madness. BUT DO NOT BLINK.

I am still here. This must mean that I have won. This must mean that the last time I felt the perfection of a breeze at sunset, that I was right. The day is yours, my dear. I’ll take refuge in the night.

I can not overemphasize the placid bliss of the silence my brain alone can provide. It’s probably cancer.

8:19 PM  
Blogger socrates_eats_hemlock said...

money, drugs,, poetry, anyone bringing the rock and roll?

5:24 AM  
Blogger blackfields vaxine said...

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11:57 AM  
Blogger m.a.l. said...

Hey, I think I know you!

3:21 PM  
Blogger brittany said...

this blog would be more believable if it weren't written like a novel.

and what does this have to do with radiohead? I still haven't figured that out.

8:25 PM  
Blogger chris said...

Its going around Fansites that this is someone in the band, or someone affiliated with the band. The blog does seem very radioheadish.

9:29 PM  
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4:17 AM  
Blogger chrisy said...

LSD could give you that type of Hallucination Stanley? :-)

Radiohead or not: excellent writting

7:00 AM  
Blogger Octobreana said...

Alright Lexden.
I see you've begun referring to your presence as a poltergeist rather than a ghost. Geists have the ability to manipulate physical objects whereas ghosts do not. I would tend to agree with your asessment on that score. That would explain,perhaps, the moved furniture the manipulation of your computer etc. My other thought is that perhaps you are dealing with Missing Time Syndrome and in fact you yourself are responsible for haunting yourself. I'm not too convinced of this however. You say that you are staying with other people so it seems likely they would question your behaviour if you were rearranging furniture etc. It couldn't hurt to ask them if you've been doing odd things, if you seem to have missing spots of time in your day. If you find this is a possibility I would reccomend you contact Whitley Strieber. He is an American author (Communion etc) who has a great deal of experience with Missing Time Syndrome. It's been my experience with Mr.Strieber that he is very willing to talk to someone who is legitimately interested in his work/experiences. He writes both fiction and non fiction. He might be a good resource for you. I find this all very interesting, though I still get the strong feeling we're all part of some test group ... hmmm. I would talk to Whitley either way, either research or reality, if I was you. He's very easy to talk to and a very nice man. Photos would be nice Lexden if you are able to take any.

11:00 AM  
Blogger Octobreana said...

P.S.
did the lovely Danielle abandon you to the hauntings? or is she yet cowering in a closet somewhere make-up mirror in hand?

11:15 AM  
Blogger Leon Fnord said...

OctoB,

Wherefrom do you get your evidence? Is it empirical or strictly guesswork? How do we know that making the distinction (between ghost, spector and geist)is not a fundamental mistake?

Your thoughts may already be in the grips of the monster. Do not anger it. It cares not whether you believe it to be a spector, demon, apparition or cognitive glitch. I shutter to think that it is laughing at us right now...

under hood and
pointing the skeletal finger

3:26 PM  
Blogger Holle said...

octobreana, are you like me, i ask.

3:48 PM  
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4:55 PM  
Blogger 7 said...

The only things like this, that do things like this, are demons. There are two types of spirits. Good ones and Bad ones. Good ones are angels, bad ones are demons. Naming them geists, ghosts, phantoms and whatever else you can come up with is jsut rediculous.
See this for what it is.
I personally believe this is a load of crap. But just incase it is true, my only advice is this: buy a Bible, go to a church, and ask the pastor for help.
There are such things as houses being possessed. So dont take this lightly. Something like this is beyond you. Only the Lord Jesus Christ can save you.
Deny it all you want, but your only digging yourself a little hole . And, eventually, you wont be able to get out of it.

5:01 PM  
Blogger Octobreana said...

Holle,
am i like you how?

do i know you? your aim + email are awfully familar. but which were you if i knew you before .. rose or dorothy? i'm still blanche. why don't you send me an email. octobreana@hotmail.com

5:45 PM  
Blogger martha said...

i'd very much like to meet you. that doesn't look like its going to happen, which is unfortunate.

7:39 PM  
Blogger BloodyStupid said...

who now? what now? come by. Suggestive to watch authentic ghost action on living t.v. Most Haunted could potentially resolve the unrest. Like in "from dust till dawn". Leave a candle out. Unless this is metaphorical, in which the candle can be like a metaphor for what you please bar the obvious "ooh i'm enlightened, ooh I can see clearly now the rain has gone". yeah yeah.

3:30 AM  
Blogger Holle said...

octobreana, i will email you tomorrow....you didn't seem familiar until i thought about it for a minute...now i'm thinking i know you too. especially from the blanche comment....by the way, why isn't anyone ever sophia. people are more likely to be stan before sophia.

i was wondering if you were a believer...that's what i was getting at...but we will have to figure out how we possibly know each other.

and for lexden...what is the resolution to all this. you can't leave us hanging like this....

6:35 AM  
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7:34 AM  
Blogger alphabet faith said...

theres always some sweat on the collar of a church lady. but you should never taste it.

8:03 AM  
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Blogger cynical jack said...

It's not what it really is.

6:39 AM  
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1:07 PM  
Blogger emckannon said...

Are you quite sure that the 'marooned in time' section (the brown room) of the house is not the innate mischievous workings of one Hanky the Christmas Poo?

Are you further convinced that Hanky the Christmas Poo is not the direct result of your peanut butter shroom fetish?

Furthermore, and more importantly, has Kenny been killed?

1:36 PM  
Blogger alphabet faith said...

such young lungs

7:40 AM  
Blogger Graeme Payne said...

I think the word you're looking for is "PRESENCE". The atrocious spelling is made all the more embarrassing by the caps.

1:44 AM  

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